31 August 2014
I found out last Wednesday that I can't live with Kathleen this year because of her health and her daughters. Her daughters are having a lot of problems that Kathleen is having to help deal with and taking me on is more stress than she can handle at this time. :\
I'm forced to find other arrangements.
Here are my options:
I only have class twice a week this term, so this option technically is possible and cheaper (because all I pay is gas, no rent and such). However, it hinders any extracurricular activities and I was also hoping to steal a friend for a weekend which wouldn't work unless I did some overnighting in town. The 4 hours of driving each day will be a bummer and homework will be extremely difficult to do with no alone space or time (being home is very distracting).
On the plus side, I could go to church here and see Beth every week. Since I haven't seen much of her this summer, that would be kind of nice.
2. Find a roommate.
Harder than it sounds. I've already talked to three people. Two of which have decided not to move out afterall (as they both live at home in town) and the third is very much on the fence, but leaning towards the "not rooming" side. :\ This was discouraging news today that kept me feeling rather sad and hopeless.
The benefits would be splitting the costs of rent and such so that finding a place would be easier (having a slightly larger budget to work with) and then being able to have someone else there for security and entertainment.
Also, if I got a kitty, I could have her kittysit for me if I couldn't be there for some reason.
Although I'd totally take the kitty home with me on visits and such.
This would require me to get a job, though, so I'd end up working weekends, probably, and as a result probably not go home much if at all which takes away my chances to steal my friend and see Beth. :\ Definitely cons.
3. Find a cheap Studio myself
Honestly, I'm hoping for this option. I feel like I need to become more independent and the only way is for me to jump in and actually do it. I'd need a job to afford it (because the cheapest thing I've seen is $400/mo and that's not counting power or internet, ugh) and so I'd be in the same position as far as not getting my friend to come here to visit and not getting to see Beth much if at all. Mrrr.
BUT if I got the place I've been looking at (courtesy of a link my friend Amy provided...) then it's close to where my friend lives so I could see her at least more frequently maybe? And it's cat-friendly (with approval and such). I'd love to look at the place and perhaps put in an application, but I just don't know.
4. Take over the room
My friend who is on the fence about rooming with me is currently renting a room from a gal named Julie, much like how I was renting a room from Kathleen. It's a similar setup to what I had, but my beef is that I don't know Julie. I don't know what she's like or if she'll even like me. Also, I'm aware that there are others interested in this room and I may not get picked to take it over. It's $375/mo but that's all I'd have to pay: no deposit, no other bills...
I wouldn't be able to get a kitty because Julie has three cats and she doesn't need a fourth living there. That's a bittersweet thing. On the one hand, she has cats! I love cats! So at least I'd be living with them. On the other, they are not MY cats. I really want my own cat.
But it's still too much and I'd need to get a job. So it looks like no matter what I do, I need to work this year, ugh.
So because of my sad feelings about not knowing what I will do, I decided I needed a good thing for today, so I drew another portrait of Megan. This one isn't quite as good or perfect, but I was experimenting and didn't want it to go unfinished, so I went ahead and finished it in a couple of hours. Sadly, it hasn't gotten the attention I was expecting. (The last one didn't either which still baffles me...) It's not that I'm an attention hog... but I'm an attention hog and it's discouraging to see it only have 12 views after it's been submitted for a couple of hours. :\
I'm secretly hoping to find a studio apartment. I want to be able to live by myself. I think my self confidence would benefit from it if I did and I'm the most excited about that possibility, but lack of funds (and a lack of jobs) is holding me back. I have money right now, but not enough to pay for the just the rent for the year, let alone the power, internet, textbooks, etc... :\ College is expensive. It's a good experience and you meet people who you want to have in your life for the rest of your life (or you can anyway; I did) but it's SO EXPENSIVE. The government needs to fix that. Ugh.
In other news, I have snapchat. So if we're buddies and you want to snapchat me, let me know and we'll exchange snapchat names.